The Holidays and NOT ME Monday

Well it has been a long weekend. My mast cells over reacted to something and I spent most of the weekend in a funk. I most certainly did not lie to my husband and say everything was ok. I would not risk my health that way!! I would never take a nap in the middle of the day when my chest hurt, and I didn't have nightmares about having a heart attack. I mean really who would do that.

My inlaws were 90 minutes late for dinner and I would never curse their name because of it. In all my frustrations I would never tell my daughter to leave me alone. Not me, no I could never do that. I love my children way too much. On Friday I didn't guilt my friend into going to the casino with me as she promised, instead of letting her out of it. I am not that kind of friend, and would never do that.

I would never contemplate what death would be like. I mean I have so much to live for, but some days when masto takes hold I just want to let go. But I would never think of such things, no NOT ME. I would never feel sorry for myself and my disease. No NOT ME.